The difficulty of beginning — an extract from The Freelancer’s Path

The following is an extract from The Freelancer’s Path, published by Greenfields Press.

Beginning is uncomfortable. This is obvious enough not to need saying, and yet it does, because the discomfort of beginning is frequently misread.

The freelancer who finds the first months difficult — surprised by the anxiety that accompanies the freedom, unnerved by the silence of the home office or the uncertainty of the first slow week — often concludes that something is wrong. That they have made a mistake. That the difficulty is a signal.

It is a signal, but not the one it appears to be. The difficulty of beginning is not evidence that the path is wrong. It is evidence that the path is real.

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The freelancer who understood this discomfort was coming, who treats it as the ordinary texture of beginning rather than as a verdict on the enterprise, is in a better position than the one surprised by it. Preparation for this discomfort is not mainly practical. It is attitudinal: the decision, made in advance and returned to when the anxiety arrives, that the difficult early months are not an emergency but an education.

That the slow week is not a catastrophe but a data point. That the rejection, the awkward client conversation, the invoice three weeks late, are not signs that freelance life is wrong for you but signs that you are learning what it requires.

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This path will ask for honesty: not the performed honesty of the LinkedIn post that admits a setback on the way to a larger triumph, but the daily, unglamorous honesty of knowing what is working and what is not, what you are good at and what you are only adequately good at, which clients are good to work with and which are good enough that you keep accepting their work when you should have declined it months ago.

It will ask for patience. The freelance career is not built in a year. The reputation that produces the work you actually want, at prices that properly reflect your value, in client relationships that are satisfying — this takes time, usually longer than expected at the outset. The patience required is not passive. It is the active patience of continuing to do excellent work in the intervals between recognition.

It will ask for self-knowledge. The question of who you are as a professional — what you value, what you are good at, what kind of working day you want to have lived — is one that employed life asks infrequently and freelance life asks constantly.

The path, in other words, is a good teacher. What it teaches is worth learning. The teaching begins now.

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